How I wish this is true... Even just for a lil while...
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Thursday, March 25
Saturday, January 9
Xmas was here and there
The ONE, Prince and I was planning to watch 2012 but they ran out of ticket, so we watched Christmas Carol instead, and that was when I realize Xmas was coming.
As if it was to nail the festival into my head, I received tonnes of emails from Scotrails, east coast railway, Bodyshop, Staples, Amazon, Blackwell's... Oh every single one of them keep shouting XMAS SALES!!! And god knows how much I miss shopping inUK
As if it was to nail the festival into my head, I received tonnes of emails from Scotrails, east coast railway, Bodyshop, Staples, Amazon, Blackwell's... Oh every single one of them keep shouting XMAS SALES!!! And god knows how much I miss shopping in
I miss shopping in UK during the sales!
I did get a lot of good deal from Body Shop over the last Xmas, and was the default Xmas present for the girls...
One of the thing I miss the most (apart from shopping and the cold/clean air) was the travelling... convenient and lots to do/see!
I used to think when people say time flies; it was just a figure of speech. Now I finally realize time is indeed flying... Last year, I spent Xmas and NY in UK, and it was a white(ish) one. White Deen is very beautiful indeed... Many prefer Edinburgh, Glasgow, London, Dublin etc. But I do have the special feeling towards Deen...
After a heavy snowing day...
Around the King's College, covered in snow... School is quiet and beautiful during winter because everyone gone home, and I did enjoy the quietness before I took off to Edinburgh and London for Xmas and New Year
If you care to venture a bit more, along the King St. or the beach opposite the school were covered in beautiful snow...
Deen harbour covered in snow looks slightly prettier for a change instead of the fishy smell... But daylight is really short-lived in winter... By the time you walked to town (Union St) from Uni, it's 1/2 gone...
In the middle of the winter, the very very winter, morning, noon, afternoon and night looks almost the same. U will have the 6 hours of mere-light to get things sorted... Felt like Dracula at those days.
One thing about Aberdeen Weather Forecast and you can be sure is it's UNPREDICTABLE...
one minute it can be quiet, next it has crazy snow storm, next it turn dark but nothing happen... Just be ready with your GoreTex Jacket at all time... End of winter is the messiest, when the ice started to melt, it will get all mushy and muddy, get your boots ready too...
I think it's about time to honor what this blog was meant to be, capturing life in the
Here it goes... a journey back to relatively young memory lane... (to be continue...)
Friday, January 8
So they left, so I cried...
Back to Malaysia after straying for a year or so... (photo from new year count down)
I'd been back for 4 months.. The lonely and lost feeling lingers. but started fading..
On the very contrary of Eldar, who told me it felt like he never left after he got home... things are in much different shapes for me.
Home was my first stop... it was glad to be back but I can't help to feel sad when I only get to visit god-granny's grave instead of herself. It was emotional ... She left when I was preparing for the final exam and I did not get to say good-bye ... I miss her dearly and hope I make her proud!
Nana herself was much different since... I decided not to venture too far for the next year or so to stay close to her. After all, I am her favourite grandchild whom inherited her strong-will that got me this far...
My lovely niece little Jade is growing up fast.. She was just a baby when I left, and I was worried that she would not recognize and thus reject me after one year... But thanks to SKYPE, she know me as EE that always talk to her on the laptop and finally came back with chocolate and is now her BEST FRIEND...
Jade jade has grown so much since I left...
Not only she developed lots of skills and personalities, she also thinks I am her best friend!
Apart from Jade, time spent with my brother Jay was the most precious... he changed and that worried me a great deal at first, so much so that I almost felt anxiety attack. But after much communication and effort from both part, things got better, and I was eternally grateful...
Reconnecting with Jay was the biggest concern of my return... He still got the purity in him, though he is also going through some rebellious period... The painting project was part of the reconnection effort, and it went well... We just want the best future for u...
Home visit was short but wonderful. Even manage to catch up with some form 6 friend whom I didn't see for almost 9 years; attended Frankie's wedding and meet more high school friends! Now that Dr. Paolo has been assigned to Miri, and he definitely brings lots of sunshine and laughter to people's life. I can already see Jay idolizing him!
Met up with form 6 friends that I have not seen for 9 years... and visited lil rain's florist...
@ Frankie's wedding with YY
Coming back to KL was a bit harder, because that means leaving my family behind again after so long. But it helps to have the Prince-CK, the little Princess -Huai Chiing and the Baby Blue Fish-Lee Chin here... I called them out on my first Monday night and they jumped right on board to sing K that night till 1am even when they have to work the very next day!
Little Prince and Baby Blue Fish (can't find lil princess's picture)... Old friends stay same old same old, it's like going home... hanging out with them
Going back to work was the hardest... I came back with lots of excitement only to find out that there were many new faces, while old faces were either gone or felt distance from me... I was lost and lonely and sad... gasping for air and turning anti-social... The fact that Bee is here helped a whole bunch for me to go through this transition period.
Bee and I are of the same species... I guess...
To make things worse, it was time for MM to leave... MM, the reason why this blog even exist... was leaving... the night before he took off, we had a quick drink and I forced to hold back my tears... But I cried very hard the next day when he text me before boarding 'Bye Ningy, Elvis has left the building'... He left... It was real... and so I cried...
It was sad to see Steve leave... The thing I dreaded since the first post of the blog finally happened...
On the very contrary of Eldar, who told me it felt like he never left after he got home... things are in much different shapes for me.
Home was my first stop... it was glad to be back but I can't help to feel sad when I only get to visit god-granny's grave instead of herself. It was emotional ... She left when I was preparing for the final exam and I did not get to say good-bye ... I miss her dearly and hope I make her proud!
Nana herself was much different since... I decided not to venture too far for the next year or so to stay close to her. After all, I am her favourite grandchild whom inherited her strong-will that got me this far...
My lovely niece little Jade is growing up fast.. She was just a baby when I left, and I was worried that she would not recognize and thus reject me after one year... But thanks to SKYPE, she know me as EE that always talk to her on the laptop and finally came back with chocolate and is now her BEST FRIEND...
Jade jade has grown so much since I left...
Not only she developed lots of skills and personalities, she also thinks I am her best friend!
Reconnecting with Jay was the biggest concern of my return... He still got the purity in him, though he is also going through some rebellious period... The painting project was part of the reconnection effort, and it went well... We just want the best future for u...
Met up with form 6 friends that I have not seen for 9 years... and visited lil rain's florist...
@ Frankie's wedding with YY
Coming back to KL was a bit harder, because that means leaving my family behind again after so long. But it helps to have the Prince-CK, the little Princess -Huai Chiing and the Baby Blue Fish-Lee Chin here... I called them out on my first Monday night and they jumped right on board to sing K that night till 1am even when they have to work the very next day!
Little Prince and Baby Blue Fish (can't find lil princess's picture)... Old friends stay same old same old, it's like going home... hanging out with them
Going back to work was the hardest... I came back with lots of excitement only to find out that there were many new faces, while old faces were either gone or felt distance from me... I was lost and lonely and sad... gasping for air and turning anti-social... The fact that Bee is here helped a whole bunch for me to go through this transition period.
Bee and I are of the same species... I guess...
It was sad to see Steve leave... The thing I dreaded since the first post of the blog finally happened...
Thursday, January 7
Direction
I had been hiding in my comfy hobbit holes and staying low since I came back. It doesn't matter what deadline is pushing me, what comment I'd got, I was working aimlessly. Don't get me wrong, I work hard, I was born with that. But I wasn't working as target-ful as I used to be when Elvis was here. I work all over the place...
SO I would start with seismic picks and think hmm... I wanna look at the synthetic, hmm... the impedance, hmm... the logs, hmm...t he petrology, hmm... the biostrat...
Before I knew it, I was building a world class database for reservoir management rather than doing a correlation for screening phase that would be used for well planning! Ning wake up! I must have screamed to myself a million times but no... I was still lost in the database playground.
... ... ...
All of a sudden, I was inspired, just because Phil asked me whether I already have a work plan and kindly suggest, in an informal kind of mode, which we could sit down some time to draft the plan and follow up once a week to keep track on things...
This put me to shame but also brought back my energy, spirit, motivation and inspiration that was long lost... probably left with Elvis.
So I kicked off with the correlation, and it turned out to be much more possible than it seems...
Without any clue, I email Elvis, 'I like Phil' I said, nothing else. Elvis replied saying 'So do I and he's a nice person to learn from.' Well, what can I say, the feeling is mutual!
Tuesday, October 20
Sudden Rush of Autumn-ess
I woke up to a very cute Google Talk msg from Young Knight Eldar (Insafutdinov)- 'I am a Guitar God '... That makes me laugh and forgot 1/2 of my fever... The knight has been practising his guitar, and the last I'd checked, he's playing like a semi-pro!
I scrolled up and saw what the knight wrote the night before 'Autumn is beautiful, just came back from a walk and...'
For a split second, I thought I was back in the lone autumn street of Aberdeen looking at trees in every different colour before the leaves fall off... Gosh, much to my surprise, I miss Aberdeen.
It could be the fever or simply the hormone, I had an emotional day thinking about the one short, yet eventful year in Aberdeen. So much memories, be it sweet or bitter, it was there to be cherished. Many things flash through my mind...
The first day of school when I met Birgit and almost certain with the first glance that she would be my best friend, and turned out that she's the best one could dreamt for... The Oct party, passing notes during classes, motivating studying session, her life saving heroic moves, our endless chit-chat, Northumberland field-trip, the origin of her nick name- Queen of Queens, the yummy cooking session, my first advert calendar, the painful ankle incident, the friendship ring... and the frienship I know would last forever...
First encounter with the knight was when he asked where to do the police registration... Little that I know we would be such close friends. It was probably the second term when I realized he's such an interesting person well resembling a live-walking encyclopedia. You would be amazed by how much the knight knows, behind his kind soul of course. His kindness was shown unintentionally through many minor incidents... and I do miss the last 2 weeks when he had to rushed for his thesis which he got 19/20 as he well deserved it.
The famous Thais-Tee and Tina make quite an impression on the first day itself... they were 'fashinably' late and successfully maintain that glorious record for the entire year. They are sweet, kind and full of energy (when it comes to party of course). My first personal encounter with Tina was when she told us endless joke about the silicon bras at Oli's party, and Tee when he confessed loudly in fron of the course co-ordinator 'I LOVE DRINKING!'... Of course I do miss the many partying time with them as well.
Those were the good times... but my close encounter with the AUTUMN were during those lonely days before I got close to any of them, before we were overwhelm by the seamlessly tight study schedule... I walked down the street alone and saw the trees, the powis, the flowers... I love autumn, I always do... The knight then shared some nice poem with me, by Puskin... They are really lovely, see it for yourself.
Maybe if you do, you would stumbled across this particular one that got me emotional at the first place... It's so beautiful that I am sure it touches the deepest part of every soul with your very own devoted experience...
For a split second, I thought I was back in the lone autumn street of Aberdeen looking at trees in every different colour before the leaves fall off... Gosh, much to my surprise, I miss Aberdeen.
It could be the fever or simply the hormone, I had an emotional day thinking about the one short, yet eventful year in Aberdeen. So much memories, be it sweet or bitter, it was there to be cherished. Many things flash through my mind...
The first day of school when I met Birgit and almost certain with the first glance that she would be my best friend, and turned out that she's the best one could dreamt for... The Oct party, passing notes during classes, motivating studying session, her life saving heroic moves, our endless chit-chat, Northumberland field-trip, the origin of her nick name- Queen of Queens, the yummy cooking session, my first advert calendar, the painful ankle incident, the friendship ring... and the frienship I know would last forever...
First encounter with the knight was when he asked where to do the police registration... Little that I know we would be such close friends. It was probably the second term when I realized he's such an interesting person well resembling a live-walking encyclopedia. You would be amazed by how much the knight knows, behind his kind soul of course. His kindness was shown unintentionally through many minor incidents... and I do miss the last 2 weeks when he had to rushed for his thesis which he got 19/20 as he well deserved it.
The famous Thais-Tee and Tina make quite an impression on the first day itself... they were 'fashinably' late and successfully maintain that glorious record for the entire year. They are sweet, kind and full of energy (when it comes to party of course). My first personal encounter with Tina was when she told us endless joke about the silicon bras at Oli's party, and Tee when he confessed loudly in fron of the course co-ordinator 'I LOVE DRINKING!'... Of course I do miss the many partying time with them as well.
Those were the good times... but my close encounter with the AUTUMN were during those lonely days before I got close to any of them, before we were overwhelm by the seamlessly tight study schedule... I walked down the street alone and saw the trees, the powis, the flowers... I love autumn, I always do... The knight then shared some nice poem with me, by Puskin... They are really lovely, see it for yourself.
Maybe if you do, you would stumbled across this particular one that got me emotional at the first place... It's so beautiful that I am sure it touches the deepest part of every soul with your very own devoted experience...
I loved you once:
perhaps that love has yet to die down thoroughly within my soul;
But let it not dismay you any longer;
I have no wish to cause you any sorrow.
I loved you wordlessly, without a hope,
By shyness tortured, or by jealousy.
I loved you with such tenderness and candor,
And pray God grants you to be loved that way again.
放弃爱你的人，痛苦， 放弃很爱的人，更痛苦， 爱上一个不能爱的人, 最痛苦 ...
perhaps that love has yet to die down thoroughly within my soul;
But let it not dismay you any longer;
I have no wish to cause you any sorrow.
I loved you wordlessly, without a hope,
By shyness tortured, or by jealousy.
I loved you with such tenderness and candor,
And pray God grants you to be loved that way again.
放弃爱你的人，痛苦， 放弃很爱的人，更痛苦， 爱上一个不能爱的人, 最痛苦 ...
Friday, September 4
Time to go
Finally it's time to go... the seperation is way different from what I have anticipated, not sure for better or worse, just the way it is.
Farewell... Bye.
Tuesday, August 25
Tuesday, August 18
Thursday, August 13
Monday, June 15
Tag by Yii, long time ago.
Thougt this is teenager's game, but since the person who tag me is my dearest brother, I shall do as told...
Personal - 10 questions。。。。
01 Name：Ning
02 Nick Name：No Nick Ning
03 Blood Type：Type A
04 Horoscope：Libra
05 Gender：Female
06 Age：Same like Dumbledore
07 Current Add: London
08 Current School: University of Aberdeen
09 Mobile Phone: Got 1 Blackberry. Just lost my Nokia (>_<)
10 No.?: Don't call, too expensive 。。。。
Friends - １０ questions。。。。
11 Best Friend: Lavannia/ Birgit
12 Person you hate： Prof. Umbridge
13 Prettiest Girl Friend：Alana Tischuk
14 Cutest Male Friend: Eldar gua (general public's opinion)
15 Girls you hate：Hypocrite
16 Guys you hate: Rude
17 Good friends: CK, Lavi, Kai Liang, Huai Chiing, Roz, Lily, Zoh, Birgit etc.
18 Who do you go out often: Lavi, Birgit, Eldar
19 你身邊最憨的朋友（限１個，不能自己）: Huai Chiing
20 你身邊最可愛的朋友（限１個）: Huai Chiing 。。。。
Love - １５ questions。。。。
21 Are you loving someone now： Sure
23 If not, when would you like to meet your other 1/2: Not Applicable (Where is 22?)
24 How many people have you confessed to: 1
25 How many people have confessed to you: 6
26 How many bf/gf have you had: 1
27 Are you occupied now: Yes
28 What would you do when a good friedn from same sex confessed: Tell her it's my honour
29 If your first love suddenly confessed to you, will you accept: Oledi
30 Why do you like your partner now: He sais it's the true Love, I think it's the superglue.
31 你和另一半牽手過嗎： Of course
32 你的另一半抱或親過嗎: Of course
33 你跟異性牽手過嗎：Of course
34 是誰，你們什麼關係：BF, friends, grandpa, uncles, baby brother, cousins...
35 現在有人在追你嗎：No
混 合 題 - １０ 題。。。。
36 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣：Fare them well
37 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：Grow up & get wiser
38 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：No big deal
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎： I am already too far away
40 你上課認真嗎 : With coffee, yes.
41 你功課好不好: Ok gua
42 你开电腦都在幹麻: Working, assignments, emails, blogging, FB, watching endless movies, youtube, tudou, pps, ebooks, games, music, skyping, chatting...
43 你的即时通有多少个同性: Oh please not get there, my contact book is too huge!
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性: Please refer to 43. 。。。。
兇 手 題 - 1 0 題。。。。
45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：Jay Chai
46 这個人對你好不好：Sweet & nice, lately like to bug me for new laptop & internet though
47 這個人是你的誰：Brother
48 你有喜歡過這個人嗎：I love him
49 你們認識多久了：Since the 1st day he was born
50 這個人是怎樣的人：Cool
51 這個人正／帥嗎：I think yes, but it's just my opinion
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过：We used to live together
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼办: I love him since the day he was born 。。。。
聯 想 題 - １０ 題。。。。
56 說到正妹你會想到誰：Nicol-pussycatdolls
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰: Jonathan Rhys Meyers
58 說到憨你會想到誰：Huai Chiing
59 說到痴你會想到誰：Jay (I copy his answer)
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰：Gigi
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰：Lavi
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：CK
63 說到傻子你會想到誰: Ah Teck
64 說到笑點低你會想到誰: donno
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰 : Me 。。。。
學 校 題 - 1 1 題。。。。
66 你的班導是誰: No such thing anymore
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個：0103
68 你最喜歡的老師是誰：Steve Carney
70 你的英文好嗎：ok gua
71 你的體育好嗎：nope
72 你的数学好么：used to, not anymore
73 你喜不喜歡你的校長: Horrible!
74 你的學校好看嗎：Yes, when is snowing or sunny
75 你的班級是：MSc IPG
76 你的班級在幾樓：Upper Ground Floor
Friday, June 12
Little Prince...
'If some one loves a flower, of which just one single blossom grows in all the millions and millions of stars, it is enough to make him happy just to look at the stars. He can say to himself, 'Somewhere, my flower is there...'
'这就象花一样。如果你爱上了一朵生长 在一颗星星上的花,那么夜间, 你看着天空就感到甜蜜愉 快,所有的星星上 都好象开着花...'
'这就象花一样。如果你爱上了一朵生长 在一颗星星上的花,那么夜间, 你看着天空就感到甜蜜愉 快,所有的星星上 都好象开着花...'
Thursday, June 11
The night before UTAH
After the stair incident on Monday, we were all hoping for Miracle...
Tee & I prepared lunch & took it to Birgit's, later joined by Tina & Eldar. I even collected the luminuos jacket & hard hat for Birgit, still hoping her ankle would get better... It didn't.
I was still living in denial on Wednesday... 'Birgit can make it.' 3pm, Birgit told me she emailed the school secretary that she can't make it. I just chucked everything into my lugagge & took off to her house to see her.
We were both very sad, but tried out best not to show it. We chit-chat as usual until Oli came home, which meant I was late for my appointment with Eldar.
Tee & I prepared lunch & took it to Birgit's, later joined by Tina & Eldar. I even collected the luminuos jacket & hard hat for Birgit, still hoping her ankle would get better... It didn't.
I was still living in denial on Wednesday... 'Birgit can make it.' 3pm, Birgit told me she emailed the school secretary that she can't make it. I just chucked everything into my lugagge & took off to her house to see her.
We were both very sad, but tried out best not to show it. We chit-chat as usual until Oli came home, which meant I was late for my appointment with Eldar.
I felt reluctant to leave, but it was time. I cried on my way back.
I was late so Eldar & I missed the movie. But we had a nice dinner to celebrate his belated birthday. Eldar managed to take my mind off from my sadness. by talking lots of other stuff... he's amazing in making things seem better than they really are.
Tee & Tina finished their dinner almost the same time as us. After retrieving Eldar's mobile phone from the cab, we went to Tina's flat together. Getting ready for the flight to UTAH early next morning... but without Queen of Queens... Birgit.
>.<
Eldar & I at his belated birthday celebration
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